Born to Love, Cursed to Feel

I spoke out of fear and you ignored me
I spoke out of pain and you didn’t listen
I spoke out of love and you walked away
So now I speak of nothing

How is it I came to love a man who now feels like a stranger?

Time and experience have taught you to trust no one Friends, lovers, and even family have forsaken you You keep the shattered pieces of your heart in a box Stitching, gluing, and staying up all night trying to put it back together Attempting to fill the void that was left Moving from one man to the next It seems no one can satisfy the appetite

The scary part is I knew exactly how bad
you were for me
and yet that didn’t stop me
from loving you

We give people multiple chances
hoping that they’ll change
I don’t know if it speaks less of them
for taking advantage
Or less of us for refusing
to accept who they are

You must love yourself more
than these people claim they doLook at where you stand now No one can know the things you have endured like you You’ve never claimed to be perfect Your flaws tell your story
There is no need to hide them

I’m trying to remember the person you were
Before the arguments, the fights
and it all went bad
I just can’t
It would be fooling myself into believing
you’re someone that you’re not anymore

Dear . . .
You’re the poem I couldn’t finish
The journey I should have never started
I saw tragedy in our ending
My pen bled its heart out trying to change it
But you were the fight I didn’t want to lose
The addiction I didn’t want to quit

Will there ever be a time where I won’t attempt to imagine your face?

Confirmation
If you want something different
You have to stop accepting
what you’re used to
Circles
We ignore the red flags, fall for the same lies
We see a bit of our past in our present
but convince ourselves it’ll be different