Just One Day

But if he knows anything at all about Shakespeare, it’s that the ghosts always come haunting.

He showed me how to get lost, and then I showed myself how to get found.

And that’s when I understand that I have been stained. Whether I’m still in love with him, whether he was ever in love with me, and no matter who he’s in love with now, Willem changed my life.

On the train to Paris, his thousand shades of laughter.

For ever and a day.
For ever and a day.

Now tell me how long you would have her after you have possessed her?

The little strength that I have, I would it were with you.

I feel my lust, my yearning and, yes, my love, coming off me in pulses, swimming toward the stage, where I imagine them being fed to him, like lines.

I think of what my mom said. About being grateful for what you have instead of yearning for what you think you want.

I open the paper, not sure where I’m going next, only sure that I’m going.