Filthy Beautiful Lies

As hard as it is, I break our kiss, resting my forehead against his. "You haven’t fucked me. Are you sleeping with someone else?" My voice is a weak whisper. But I have to know before I give myself to him. I’ve fallen for him completely and the knowledge that this isn’t exclusive would kill me.
His determined gaze meets mine. "No. There’s been no one else." He kisses my lips chastely. "I haven’t fucked anyone in two years."

He looks down at it curiously before meeting my eyes.

Now that he’s here in the kitchen with me, I’m fidgety. Using

I’m coming to realize I’m more than just a casual fuck to Colton

Just before he reaches the bedroom door, he turns back to face me. "Just so you know, he would never cheat. He falls hard, gives people way too many chances and is kind and generous to a fault. Be careful with him

"It suits you. You’re my dirty little secret – a kept woman," I remind her, smoothing a hand along her backside, watching her pulse kick up in her neck. I couldn’t have her questioning my motives. They was too fucked up for even me to think about, let alone admit to her. And since I wasn’t willing to let Stella fuck up yet another thing in my life, I planned to handle her, and then I would make Sophie mine

Even though our circumstances are anything but normal, I can tell this is our new normal. It’s what we’re both choosing. It scares me to think how compatible we are.
I’d been trying like hell to hold her at a distance – to keep her separate from my personal life – but there’s no denying it, she’s all I think about. She’s all I want. Though it’s entirely honest, the realization scares me. And it feels nice to be touched. Even if it’s not real

She wants this as badly as I do, which doesn’t make our situation any easier or less confusing. It’s a mind fuck. A battle I know I’m going to lose. I am a man pushed to my breaking point. I can’t walk away. I won’t leave Sophie to deal with the aftermath of my rejection. And that’s what it had been. I’d been denying my want of her for weeks. I’d held myself back from taking something that wasn’t mine. But tonight, when she’d reached for my belt, I realize now that had been her decision

"You wanted me," I say, looking in her eyes.
She blinks up at me, her blue eyes softening.
"Say it," I command.
"I… I want you…" she breathes

. Sophie wanted me.
The realization rings like a gunshot in my ears. I can’t think, can’t see straight