Carley Fortune

“Then let me have you,”

But the memories and the regrets they carried with them chafed like the blanket’s wool, and I would lose nights imagining where Sam was at that precise moment, wondering if there’s a chance he might be thinking of me. Sometimes I felt sure he was—like there was an invisible, unbreakable string that ran between us, stretching vast distances and keeping us joined. Other times, I dozed off in the midst of a movie only to wake in the middle of the night, my lungs feeling like they were on the verge of collapse, and I’d have to breathe my way through the panic attack.

And not for the first time, it feels like someone stole the script to my life story and wrote it all wrong.

It felt good to give shape and order to my thoughts, and I liked using words to paint pictures of the lake and the bush.

“I’m serious. Boys are for fun. Lots of fun. But don’t let one stand in the way of your greatness.”

“I can’t tell you how many times I’ve thought about kissing you that night in my room.”

“It was incredible. I know it sounds corny, but it was the best night of my life. I think about it all the time.”

is how your actions are in complete contrast to your words.”

you don’t want to be one of those girls who has nothing interesting to say because all she thinks about is her boyfriend

“Sam has it in his head that you belong to him. Not in a creepy possessive way, but it’s more like he has this belief that everything is meant to work out between you two in the end.